A month later..........

Well my last post was kinda sappy/depressing!!!! But I needed to catch the way I was feeling down. I go back and read it to remind myself to SNAP OUT OF IT, life is too short/precious to sit around feeling sorry for yourself!!!! I feel sooo much better too!!! Not only do I feel better about myself but about life in general!!!! I'm really loving the person I know I want to be and am slowing becoming!!!! For the past couple years, I've sat back and let people walk all over me. I didn't do anything for myself. I've ALWAYS PUT OTHER'S BEFORE ME!!!! Well 2011 is going to be (and far has) different.

I'm making it a point to have a better relationship with God. I know I've struggled with this for sooo long!!! I feel like I'm such a weak person and don't know how to serve him the way he deserves to be worshiped! But really is there a "Right" way too?? I've started teaching Harley and Derek's class at Team Kid every Wednesday with my best friend Kelly!!! So far we are having a ball and I'm so happy to be interacting with these kids!!!! Derek told me that Miss Mommy and Miss Kelly were the best teachers ever!!! I love that boy!!! Harley also told me the same thing too!! I'm also attending a women's small group at Mandi's house every Thursday. It just started 2 weeks ago! Let me tell you, every woman there is such a blessing!! I'm really glad that I am sticking to my guns and participating in this group!!! My thursday's have just picked up and it really gives me something to look forward too. The best part is, I'm not alone!! I'm not alone in feeling that I'm the only one going through some pretty stressful situations.

So hopefully I'll be posting good things from here on out!!!! OHHH, I've got one good thing to post about! I just picked up my new baby last night!!! Since I can't have anymore babies and I've had BABY FEVER so bad, I got a new puppy.

INTRODCUING...................


Magnum
He's a 9week old Bulloxer (American Bulldong/Boxer)

I'm sooo in love with him. I just picked him up last night. I've actually had him picked out since he was 2 weeks old!


I love his color/markings!!!!!

Ok well I need to run, got a lot of stuff to do here at work!!! I just wanted to stop by and give you all an update!!! Hope everyone has a AWESOME VALENTINES DAY :-)

UGH..................

UGH, that's about how I feel right at this moment!!!! Just warning you, this post will be ALL OVER THE PLACE because that's where my mind is right now! I've been having a ruff couple months just dealing with everyday stress! The one thing that keeps me straight is of course my kids. I'm at a point in my life where I feel like I need to make some changes.

One change is my career. I'm currently a Program Analyst with the Federal Government. I'm working with the Military Working Dog K9 Handlers and it's SO MUCH FUN!!!!! Growing up I wanted to be a K9 cop! I even talked with Charles County K9 cops about becoming one but my daddy said he didn't want his daughter to become one so I didn't follow that dream. I guess being over here working with these guys, has opened up the want/desire I had so many years ago to become one. Now, I'm 28 years old with 3 kids. I really can't see myself doing any type of shift work but God knows, I would at the drop of a dime (if the opportunity presented itself), enroll in the academy and pursue my dream.

As I just said, I'm 28 years old. Two years until I'm 30! I can tell you one thing, I thought my life would be different then the one I have now. Please don't take anything that I'm saying as I hate my life. I absolutely do not! I guess I'm just having a pitty party so I'm sorry for making you all read through this. I thought I would be married, own my home and be really finacially stable! Well I have the finiacial party down, but unfortunately I don't own my own home and I'm not married. I also only thought I would only have two kids, a boy and a girl! LOL, I guess God saw differently!!!!

I know I'm extremely blessed to be the mother to three beautiful blonde haired, blue eye'd kids. I couldn't imagine my life without them. I absolutely LOVE BEING A MOMMY!!! I love being told that I'm the GREATEST MOM!!!! I love kissing all my kids boo boos, I love wiping away their tears, I love tucking them in at night, I love waking up to morning breath kisses (hehe)! I LOVE them so much with all my heart!!!! When I had Melissa, I had the doctor tie my tubes. I knew/know in my heart that my poor body just can't afford to carry another baby!!! But I also knew that I could if I really wanted too. Well over the summer I had a procedure, called NovaSure done. After I had Melissa, my womanly cycle was running HAVOC on me! Birth Control was tried to regulate it but nothing worked. For those who aren't sure what NovaSure is, it's a simple procedure where then burn the inside of your uterus. So I really CAN'T have anymore babies! I am really ok with this outcome but lately I've had the "I want a baby" feeling. It's been TERRIBLE!!! My baby will be 2 next month!!! My kids have grown so fast!!! I'm glad I had all my kids young but I also really enjoyed having a little baby in my house too. The feedings throughout the night, the lack of sleep, never bothered me! UGH, it's just a ruff feeling!! I know I'll get over it, but still, it sucks to feel this way!

Anyway, enough of the BLAH talk, we have my Mom's 50th Birthday dinner this Sunday. She wants Ledo's!!! So that's where we will be!!! Looking forward to that! I hope everyone has a GREAT WEEKEND!!!!!

Happy NEW YEAR (better late than NEVER right??)

Happy belated New Year everyone :-) I know I'm late in wishing everyone that but I've been BUSY!!! Working over here at Bolling now, I really have a lot more stuff going on. It actually feels good to be needed. Let's see, Josh and I went out for New Year's Eve!!! We took along our good friend Kelly and we all had a blast. We went to this guy Joe's house in Welcome, MD! My parents watched the kids for us. Josh and I haven't been out on a New Year's Eve outing in 5 years! We usually stay home with the kids. Um, next year, I will be staying home and ringing in the New Year with my kids!!! I had a BLAST, (we don't normally get to GET OUT and HAVE FUN as a couple) yeah, I definitely had the phone pulled out going through my pictures of my babies b/c I missed them!!! I drank WAY too much that night!!!! Let's just say that when my parents brought my kids home the next day around 1:00pm, I still wasn't feeling that great! I don't drink a lot and I know why now, LOL!!! It'll be awhile before I drink again!

So this past week/weekend I have 3 sick kids and then I caught it on Friday. So we stayed in our PJ's all weekend! That was weird! My oldest two usually get up and the firt thing they want to do is get dressed for the day! Nope, we were LAZY and it was absolutely awesome to do that! I barely did any housework. My house is in desperate need of some TLC from me! Hopefully next weekend, I'll be up to par and ready to tackle the house cleaning project I've assigned to myself! Alrighty, I'm gonna leave you with a few pictures!! Have a great week everyone!!! :-)


Harley and Adrianna (my sister's soon to be step daughter) on their way back from seeing Tangled in 3D!!! This was Harley's first time seeing a movie in the movie theater! My mom and sister took them and they all had a BLAST!!!


Harley is a PRO at hula hooping!! This child has a hula hoop on her hips EVERYDAY!!!


Oh yeah, look who's QUALIFIED with a 9mm!!!! Yep, I am!!! Since I'm working with the Military Working Dog Handler's now, they took me over with them to the range to qualify on the 9mm!!! I get to go qualify on the M4 with them next!!!! This is definitely one of the perks to working over here!!!